Tempted and twenty
and lighter than air
We were limitless then
but then I didn’t care
‘cause the river still ran
at the end of your street
and the earth didn’t turn
unless churned by our feet
Before I feared flying
and you fell from grace
there was something like hope
in the look on your face
…
Do you remember how we met? Silhouetted by the lights…
You were drunk and tried to take a mental picture with your hands. I was thinking about that, and a bunch of other things. Stop looking at the floor… I need to pour out this expansive dose of words. I can’t explain. I need to be alone. I know the timing isn’t great, but these things, you just can’t plan. I just need a little time, so I can find myself again. Because I get buried underneath all the things they think you are, and I’m too tired to pretend it doesn’t hurt to be left out. I had a pocket full of dreams, but I gave them all to you. Now I think I want them back, so can you tell me if I’m crazy or confused? Don’t ever change, the way you are. I’ve never loved anyone more.
“Sometimes I get lost. I don’t mean out in the world, out in landscape. But, rather, lost in terms of any sense of how I fit within the world—unclear about what gives my life meaning or why I exist, where I belong. I lose my center. We all do. …”